The past ten days have been a little different me…I took some time off and rested, and boy was it needed! I’d started to feel a little jaded, depressed and down right gloomy about my lot and it was about time I took a step back and just released control for a little while.
For those who don’t know, as well as running PostTea I also work three days a week as an Events Manager, and September had been a particularly taxing month. Whilst it would seem that I have a great work/work balance (between paid work and PostTea) I feel constantly unbalanced and out of control of both worlds. I don’t feel dedicated to either properly, and that sits quite uncomfortably for me. Making decisions about PostTea and what I can commit to that world is so tricky, and so I make no decisions at all, and then despair about nothing changing, PostTea not growing as it should, and being unsatisfied at work.
My other half and I both needed a break, and so we spent a week on a beach in Turkey, indeed the most energetic thing we did was hit the spa for a Turkish Bath treatment. As is always the case, it took us a couple of days to slow down the pace, calm down and stop fretting about all the things we’d left unattended at home and at work. We returned on Tuesday, and I had every intention of getting up Wednesday and Making Things Happen. Of course, post holiday blues sunk in quite quickly, and yesterday was a write off. Spending a week in harmony, relaxing and not stressing only emphasises the deficiencies and imbalances in your life when you return; only then can you feel the difference between a pace of life that is unsustainable and unhealthy.
Deficiencies and imbalances sounds pretty bad; unsustainable and unhealthy sounds even worse. Life should be for living and not enduring.
So what’s the answer? Well, one answer is to put PostTea in a box, focus on earning enough money to life, and enjoy and thrive, and then bring PostTea back out and reassess it in a new, more positive life. However there’s a big voice inside my shouting NO! I know that PostTea can provide me with the lifestyle that I want to live, plus I’m not one to give up just because the going gets tough.
So for now I need to find balance in what I do, how I work, and how I live. How do other people do it? What’s the key to successful balance? What do you suggest?